A story of choices and loss
The end of Turbo
The liquidation is official.
The opposing party agreed.
The ruling is final.
As soon as the judgment is formally served, Turbo will cease to exist in its current form.
How things will unfold from here, only time will tell.
I knew this was coming.
And still, part of me held onto hope.
Hope that the buyout might still happen.
Even without my cooperation.
A quiet doubt left me open.
But after this confirmation, it’s become clear.
For me, this is a loss.
I would’ve preferred to preserve what we built together.
To find a way forward, together.
What remains, however, is this:
an end to a hellish chapter.
The choice was on the table
What hurts me most
is that all of this could have been avoided.
I had said it openly, more than once:
“If you want to buy me out, I will cooperate. We can stop the liquidation.”
I said it gently.
Sincerely. With openness.
But the response never came from connection,
only from control.
“Not as long as you’re still on the property,”
was the answer.
As if my physical presence
was more of a problem than our shared future.
Ego as a driving force
This, for me, is the clearest example
of how ego can take over.
The urge to win.
To dominate.
To make a point.
Stronger than the willingness
to find a solution together.
And I know what I’m talking about.
I used to be that way too.
Holding on to being right.
Fighting from pain.
Clinging to what I thought I needed
just to stay standing.
The path of letting go
But I’ve stepped away from that.
Or better said: I am stepping away from it.
Because letting go of ego isn’t a switch.
It’s a path.
And I’ve consciously chosen to walk that path.
Because I’ve come to understand:
Winning at the expense of connection is ultimately losing.
A weekend. A proposal. Silence.
There was that weekend.
Where I made the proposal
to revisit what might still be possible.
I spoke from a place of love.
Not because everything was fine – far from it –
but because deep inside I still believed
that honesty and softness could make a difference.
But the proposal was rejected.
Not based on content,
but on conditions that had nothing to do with our story.
Only with control.
The consequences of holding on
And now I see the result.
Everything we built is falling apart.
The people around us.
Our children.
Our work.
The memories.
All of it is tainted
by an energy that serves no one.
And the worst part is:
it didn’t have to happen.
A different choice
This is why I write this.
Not to blame,
but to show what happens
when ego takes the lead.
And what becomes possible
when we dare to step out of its grip.
My choice hasn’t been the easiest,
but it is mine.
And I’m proud of the path I’m choosing.
For those who recognize themselves
Maybe you recognize something in yourself.
In your relationship. Your work. Your family.
Maybe you feel that moment of truth,
where you must choose:
to fight or to soften.
To stay in the old, or step into the new.
If you are in that place,
know this:
you are not alone.
And every step you take toward letting go
is a step toward freedom.
General reflection
There comes a moment when giving in is no longer an act of peace, but one of self-erasure.
This story reveals how repeated displacement — from the house, to the camper, to the pool house, and finally to the warehouse — is as much a physical movement as it is emotional. Each step back was an attempt at peace. But even the warehouse did not offer refuge. That’s where the boundary was drawn.
This ongoing pattern shows how destructive cycles repeat themselves until a clear inner limit is set. And how love can be confused with self-sacrifice. Letting go does not mean allowing everything — it means feeling when enough is enough.
Psychological reflection
- Ego splitting – In conflict, two realities often coexist: one that fights to retain control, and another that longs to heal by letting go. This chapter illustrates the shift from survival to surrender.
- Grief and powerlessness – The liquidation of Turbo symbolizes the end of a shared dream. The grief is not only for what was lost, but for what never had the chance to fully blossom. It shows up as anger, silence, or quiet despair.
- Setting boundaries – The physical retreat from one space to another (house, camper, pool house, warehouse) mirrors the internal process of setting boundaries. Not to punish, but to protect what lives inside.
Spiritual reflection
- The paradox of letting go – In many spiritual traditions, surrender is not seen as weakness, but as a profound act of strength. Choosing not to follow the ego is not defeat, but liberation.
- Transformation through conflict – In Taoism, every conflict holds the seed of a turning point. The destruction of form (Turbo) can give rise to essence (clarity).
- Love without possession – To love doesn’t mean to hold on. This chapter shows how love can remain, even when continuing together is no longer possible. It distinguishes between connection and entanglement.
“What falls apart, reveals where the heart still stands.”